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second dream: dreamt I was living at a kind of gross diy venue that was a sectioned off warehouse in Texas. I didn't know anyone there except N and someone I used to be acquainted with, J, & felt so alone. it rained heavily. all my instruments were broken & the brakes in my car were out so I couldn't leave. these annoying hollywood elites came in and were acting like they owned the place and no one did anything about it. they were so rude and either ignored most or were really depersonalizing when they spoke to others I lived with. I got really upset and screamed at two of the men as they were setting up to film something. I yelled at them for what felt like a really long time and then felt embarrassed and left. walked through the rain to this field where some people played soccer. on the other side of the field, a person was dancing and playing violin and 2 or 3 people were there sitting on a bench watching her. I thought it was nice they came out to see her even though it was raining.

my cat was leading me somewhere, outside through grass. people were telling me she was running away, but she kept looking back to see if I was following so I knew she wasn't. never got there.

short nap dream: tiny shapes were on my shoulders and they trimmed my hair

dreamt j was telling me something important but I don't remember what. I just remember sitting by each other talking & the lighting behind them being periwinkle & pink

was assigned (by benevolent powers?) to play in a thrash metal band with strangers. we couldn't find anywhere to practice, a group of scientists had blocked off the 2nd floor of this large white building. I think my therapist was in the dream & we were walking & she had missed some deadline at the university she teaches at & told me she was going to be more gracious with her students' deadlines on the future.

dreamt I was helping my friend decorate at kerr (venue). we were stressed about putting everything up in time. it was night but he put up windows w/sunshine coming through all over the walls.

I'm noticing now I took down a few things that were hanging on my walls last night & put them in my bed. hmm.

had a long talk with a shadow. do not remember about what, just remember sitting outside cross legged and mostly listening. I think it was summer, nearing the end of the day.

dream had to do with: was on tour but confused about where to go every city we were in. others I was touring with (J, B, H) didn't know either. on one flyer j & I were listed as "the thank you's" We got to Chicago and I found a pig in someone's basement that I was supposed to have been taking care of but forgot to. the pig was cuddling with my cat and I apologized but she said it was okay & she'd spent the time working on her writing.

dreamt I was moving into a huge home with my real roommate e. it was some historic mansion that was open to the public but we were going to move in & we were deciding how much furniture we were going to need. I had to leave to work at the entrance. it was crowded outside & the weather was nice. I had a piece of grass I tucked between my thumbs and blew on to make a loud noise. my co-worker across the lawn was trying too but couldn't get his to work. I saw someone I want to be friends with & he smiled & waved but we didn't talk because there were so many people, it became too crowded.

dreamt planes came to blow up the city with 2 liter coke bottles dangling down from ropes that fell. they didn't blow us up though, they flew away from stl, the attack fell on new york and hong kong and other cities across the world but we figured they'd be back for us. I think it was the u.s. military. I was in a brick office building by the river with a group of 5-6 others planning a film. it felt like the fitch building (art studios) in des moines.

donkey kong space invasion hiding on a church floor with many people. edit: have been told this is more like planet of the apes than donkey kong

dreamt I went to NYC to visit A but didn't tell him until I was already there and then only had 3 hours before I had to fly home to get back to work. a friend was with me and she didn't want to go out to meet A where he was so we didn't actually get to see him.

had a dream I was going to get married to someone I hate. I don't remember who, just felt very trapped and nervous. analyzing: what do I feel "married" to in waking life that I don't want to be? nothing immediately jumps out.

had a good dream. unsure of what, just woke feeling lighter

dreamt my coworkers were bullying me for how I sound when I sing & I had an overreaction. I shut myself in a room and broke a chair and then felt shocked and ashamed. they were shouting at me to leave the room but I wouldn't. idk where this dream comes from, feeling very supported both @ work and in other realms of my life rn.

last night I dreamt I went on the worst date ever. it was at some sports complex, astroturf everywhere, high ceilings and ugly bright gym lighting, and we were trespassing (maybe?). all of these alarms and flashing lights were going off. but there was also a bar with people sitting around drinking so we sat by them. i don't remember what was so bad about the guy I was on the date with, but I think he just talked about himself a lot & didn't have much kindness about him. the one thing we had in common was we both were not into sports. I don't remember how the dream ended, I just felt like I needed to leave the whole time but couldn't.

dreamt I was at a house show that was ending. I was nervous about how crowded it got but people were leaving & it was getting easier to be there. x's dad and uncle were there and that made me feel uneasy too because they kept diverting conversation every time I tried to talk to them. then I jammed with a friend (i was on bass, they were on synth) and the lead singer of uc was there and said he wished he could've played drums but there was no kit around. we all went upstairs and there was a dinner party happening with all these spiritual leaders around. also A was there and he had been in some children's movie as a kid that we were all watching. i felt weird that I hadn't seen it before& wasn't really able to pay attention. some monks who were sitting at my table got up and switched to another table & I felt guilty for not being able to focus

wrote this dream down in the middle of the night but don't remember having it: "I was at a party with 2 folks. I got the laser lights"