November dreams

Nov 30

dreamt I was telling c why I didn't like her anymore

Nov 29

got beck a friend dog & they liked playing with each other

Nov 24

dreamt I was helping 2 other people mount a deer head in a rock gym.

Nov 22

big hills to slide down.

I remember feeling so in love with R but then knowing he was just a dream.

timothee chalumet was in my dream and he was an irresponsible jerk but his friends were fun and kind.

I had to leave from sliding down hills to go out to dinner with my mom, grandma, and someone I used to work with who was an older woman I used to really enjoy talking to, S.

one of my hill sliding friends, Mollochi came along& professed his love on a note he left for me in the bathroom.

I didn't know if I loved him back, but I felt sentimental that he came along with us.

Nov 21

dreamt of cops following me in a car. I think I was hiding something.

Nov 19

was at the adrianne lenker show. then I was at work which was in the same building as the show. Rh was making cocktails for people, but I wasn't on the clock. I felt bad about how busy we were. people were getting extremely drunk and throwing up everywhere. I saw someone playing guitar in the corner and walked up close to them and they sang into my ear. their voice had no gender, just very smooth and warm. big eyes and their face was up close to mine. I went back to the concert hall. J was on stage playing the encore. he asked if there were any songs that adrianne didn't play that we wanted to hear. I shouted to ask if he knew zombie girl. he smiled and said of course and then played it for us.

Nov 17th

played a board game, that A made, with him and Ro. it was both digital and 3d printed. I remember light green/ blue swirly threads & small grey letters for spelling things out. I don't remember what I wrote.

later I was with Rh and it was iced over outside. we slid around the sidewalks & grass until we made it back to A's place and had plans to steal the board game but A was leaving his apartment when we got there and said we could borrow it anyway.

Nov 16th

I was told to dance around freely for the filming of this art film by an older man. my friends had been given the direction to act like they were going to shoot someone and act like they were picking flowers. later I had to drive a friend to the hospital because he had injured his wrist and when I got him, bone was peaking through. my friend seemed incredulous but not worried. more happened later in the dream, but I don't remember

Nov 15th

dreamt I was at a white sand dune with 2 kids who were pointing out baby turtles popping out from the sand and saying "boy, girl, boy, girl, boy, girl" and then 2 large turtles emerged and the children laughed.

Nov 14th

dreamt I gave someone a hickey but it was in a platonic way and we both laughed about it. I don't remember who.

Nov 13th- two dreams

was with my old m.a. friends in their apt looking for different cooking ingredients. we snuck into their neighbor's apartment and stole some spices.

found work at a bar. went to a show and a bunch of old KTRM were there and the house music person played one of my songs and I got embarrassed. later we went to the bar I had just started working at and we sat in doubles (one person behind another). I sat behind c.b. and L. had a shocked look on their face and said "oh my god" and I looked around the corner thru a window to see their ex. we all stared a long time to try to make eye contact & he looked over back at us and gave us a goofy grin but didn't come say hello.

Nov 12th

dreamt I was in the pnw visiting l and m. their house was beautiful and had purple lights around the outside. my childhood best friend's mom had just moved up there too and I went to her large empty house to help her set up some of the rooms, but there was mostly nothing. I was shocked because she had been a hoarder when I was a child. she told me she was getting a clean start. we decorated the outside of the house by spelling out words with paracord and hanging them up like lights.

Nov 11th

dream involved a fear that the plants wouldn't know when to change the colors of their leaves and my front left car headlight

Nov 9th

making something in a large pot. it's clear and simmering. it has a translucent film over the top and when I stir it, the film cracks away into the shape of a bird flying.

Nov 8th

in a large school, 3 stories, giggling a lot of the dream. rowen and I keep making out in different bathrooms. i had a dance routine with rowen. paxton complemented us bc we switched ours to be a more casual number and other groups changed and switched theirs. people are using sound mixers everywhere. it's music school. I'm heading upstairs to see if we can practice. the stairs are strings and I've tuned all the strings to be one chord. Dr. K is walking up above me. he's humming something else and when he reaches cadence I strum a bunch of notes that don't match. he says "now play the right one" and I do and we both laugh. I finally reach the top and there's another group setting up so we can't practice but someone young says "I heard webkinz adkinz is gonna play here" and I couldn't stop cracking up. they meant rowan atkinson (Mr bean)

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I don't remember which days I had these two, but they were pre-4th:

rowen & I had moved into a too-big house together. I was lying next to them trying to fall asleep and our old friend C.L. was trying to get our attention & wake us up to play a board game. I just wanted to sleep so I walked outside and tried to sleep on the sidewalk but a group of children mocked me and told me sidewalks were for walking. I got up to go back to my own bed & crossed a neighbor's yard where there was a fruit tree. I picked a plum & another neighbor saw so I got nervous. i remember thinking that the plums should be for everyone since there's so many. I brought the plum back to my house to share with rowen & then woke up.

I talked with my therapist about this dream & she had me take on many people's and object's perspectives & give statements as them & it was super eye opening. I'm worried about my awake-life friend C.L. and haven't been doing enough to try to help.

dream 2 -

I was sitting on a pier in a big city on the ground in a circle with a group of people. I rested my head on someone's shoulder and felt shy about it, but realized it was fine and platonic. they were reading a science and art zine and I was looking through a box of paints all named after birds. someone came and sat near us and was talking too much. he asked my friend if he could have the zine but my friend said no.