3-31-21

I was in an infinite white room with a large red tailed hawk. he came up to my shoulders in height while standing. we were having a conversation that had to do with his spots on his tail feathers but I don't remember what about. the mood was very intense.

3-15-21

dream: i was in Chicago. I was on a familiar platform from other "city" dreams I've had, waiting for the train, but it was these long water platforms/ waterslide passageways and it was frustrating because I just wanted a train & I kept falling off & having to swim and climb back on. I was suddenly with a very camp group of friends. the network was all in underground tunnels. we made it to the "big plunge" and I fell off on the way down. I swam over to the end of the platform & as we were walking over to the stairs back up to the streets when I saw an old acquaintance, C. she told me she had her baby and named it Iowa, and I told her that was beautiful. (irl she had her baby over a year ago I think)

I walk around the streets a while with my camp friends and we end up at someone's apt, which is leaking. I try to call a plumber and she shows up but it's a comedian instead & she keeps cracking jokes and then there's a dog in the apt that is like, a small shih tzu with green & pink hair on his head and the whole room is decorated colorful and wild. I am still not at the final destination I was trying to reach, but I wake up before I leave.

3-13-21

pt 1: I was supposed to be an airline steward but got the flight time wrong in an email & then watched the plane I was supposed to be on crash and kill a bunch of people. I talked to the other stewards on board who survived and they felt guilty and responsible 4 some reason undisclosed to me. they had been pretty rude to me earlier on in the dream & were dressed like lavish colorful 80s rockstars, think jumpsuits, David bowie, and power line.

pt 2: I had a pet Canadian goose who I was in the bathtub with. he was very bitey but it didn't hurt and he was just playing. we got out and went into the yard and someone let their dogs loose. first he tried to fight them but then I caught the dogs and he hid atop a fence and played dead until I scooped him into my arms. he felt very dense and round like clay. there were some sleeping ducks on the fence post too

3-11-21

cw- death, murder, gore.

i was wandering around a city that was very purple and blue with steep hills and many large apartment buildings.

i came across a kid who wanted to show me something & they just threw/ dropped their infant sibling.

i went inside a house and met a woman and a child cowering and another child painting and making art. a man came over & pointed outside to the street to a large mass of color. he told me to look again and it was a long pile of bodies. he told me the family's father was disturbed and I asked if the father had killed and arranged the colorful pile of bodies along the street but I already knew he had. deep reds, dark yellows, purples, blues. I look back to the mother and she's asking the child to paint a large yellow flower over his canvas but he's painting something else. a thick purple line through the center horizontal with sad colorful eyes peering over the top. it's his mother's eyes.

I walk outside and wander the hills further. I end up in a dark parking garage and feel spooked so I run to my car & notice someone has broken in so I run further, out of the garage. someone tells me to walk further and get ice cream with them but I tell them I can't because I haven't gone for a run yet today. I have to prioritize that.

3-7-21

dreamt I was in a very large old wooden house, kind of victorian, with many other people exploring it. my friends c & l were there exploring too. a woman found a bedroom/bathroom in the basement that had a small, rectangular hole in the floor. underneath was about a foot of space and then water. she said she had just gone into the hole and swam around and recommended we try it. I was hesitant but ended up doing it and it was very dark. I couldn't see much around.

I walked upstairs and outside to see that the house was next to a cliff, and from that cliff is where the ocean started and poured downward. some folks told me to jump because there were no rocks at the bottom. it was very tall but I trusted them and jumped from the center of the cliff/shore and it was beautiful and blue. I landed in the water finally and almost hit rocks at the bottom but ended up using them to push off of and swim back up.

3-4-21

had a dream I was doing a really good job at explaining the difference between types of porcelain and clay. this was funny because I don't really know anything about this but I felt confident during the dream.

3-1-21

dreamt the whole world was burning from the sun. people had different houses that were safe to live in because of red green blue and yellow levels that you had to perform alchemy type magic to sustain. you could see how much you had for each color because of a big gage in the home & in the house I was in, blue levels were running low. people wanted in so I let them until we were at capacity, but I had to keep leaving to try to find the stuff for our blue level. there was a bigger house with extra supplies but they wouldn't share, even though I was housing more people. the Beatles lived in the bigger house. Paul McCartney disappeared or died (unclear) so they were looking for someone younger. I was thinking of auditioning so that I could get some blue level things for my house & then just leave & bring it back home.

the fire all around was very orange and the sky was dark.