FEBRUARY 2021

Feb 26 21

my cat was freaking out. running around my room yelling. I get up & ask her what's wrong. she tells me (non-verbally) to follow her to the mirror. I do and she asks me to let her in the mirror. I slide my closet door & she tells me no, not the closet, the mirror. she's panicked & I'm trying to figure out how to do that for her but I'm getting stressed out & anxious because I can't. I'm on my knees on the floor & I can't figure it out. then woke up

Feb 21 21

i was inside the largest hotel. huge giant big ceilings. I wandered into a smaller room with a pool and several men playing a game in the water. I was going to leave but they invited me to play with them. it involved avoiding a knife floating around that was controlled by someone. no one was hurt but it was both stressful and exciting to me.

at the end, they invited everyone to play a game where you type a "fact" about yourself and everyone polls on whether or not they think it's true. I typed "Mere believes that they are God." It was going to be a trick-fact because I believe everyone and everything is God in the way of us all containing the same energy of the universe. (i was listening to an Alan Watts audiobook last night so that's probably why that showed up in my dream lol)

before we finished the game, I had to run off to somewhere because I was being chased. I had another dream after that one about the antique shop, but I don't remember what happened anymore. I think something to do with my coworker j & her music sampling projects.

Feb 18 21

in my dream I was on a commune being assigned work based on my test score. I was put to work with two very loud women. they told me we should all go to this classroom with the others in our group & when we got there we met a psychic. the 2 women were loud and giggling and told her we were all very alike. i was quiet though and couldn't really get a word in. at the end she told me it was nice to meet me and knew my name even though I hadn't told her.

feb 14 21

i dreamt i was living in a large house with several people (common theme lately?) I was job coaching/working in a group home with several folks, no one i work with in real life. rowen gave me a small special deck of magic cards in a black stone case with a cool border and i was going to combine it with my own plains deck. i was turning off lights in other rooms & cleaning like we do at the end of the day irl in the antique shop i work at when a group of the folks living there called to me from another room and asked me to come join them and play magic. i realized i couldn't find the deck rowen gave me and told them to go ahead and play without me while i frantically searched. i think i found it behind some cool lamps and went to sit with them at the table and watch.

a mail carrier walked up and handed me a form to fill out with questions about how my routes usually "went" but it was like scratch-off art paper. there was a question about "how long does it take you to complete a route?" and i accidentally scratched a huge "19 HOURS" and got upset because that wasn't really how long it takes me to do a mail route and i knew i could get yelled at for claiming so. then a postal worker walked by the large table we were all at and i leaned over to the person next to me and said "That's Bird, that's who trained me" even though it wasn't actually Bird. then i woke.

feb 8 21

in my dream last night I was living with a friend of mine from college who I'm not in touch with anymore and his moms. one was strict & very Christian and the other one seemed very cool and nice. it was a very fancy house with black marble walls and dark brown floors. raining outside in the springtime.

the mean mother made me sleep on his bedroom floor. she made us write music on sibelius (music notation software) but I was so uncomfortable I didn't finish my piece in time. later she angrily followed me downstairs into the basement which was like, 1940s locker room with showers everywhere & I hid in a stall until the nice mother came down to talk to her.

feb 4 21

I'm not updating dreams every night anymore... just when I feel like they are interesting/vivid enough for me to want to remember later.

last night I walked around a big flat city. blocks after blocks of short buildings, restaurants, shops, etc. kind of like the east village area of dsm where I work, but flat. grey overcast sky. I ended up in a coffee shop with my old composition & theory professor from Truman. he's been in a dream once before in the basement of a huge cathedral, where he warned me the world was ending. in this dream we were just sitting at the bar though & he told me about different kinds of coffee while I drank some instant coffee he recommended from a large bag with a straw. I left due to some time constraint, don't remember the rest.