###covid dreams
z & I got covid so I've been having stress dreams. 

dream 5 - Saturday night
I'm flushing a hamster down the toilet. it can hold its breath so I know it's alright. it doesn't go down the first time so I flush again and away it goes. I instantly regret this & wonder why would I do this so I run to the water tank where I hope he will end up. it takes a while but I pull him out & he's fine, but i'm still incredibly disappointed & kind of scared of myself. there are other animals running around the house in the dream that the hamster is friends with. 
later my friend is driving us out to a soup bar. my friend doesn't drink so we're just going for soup. once we get there I get some soup and then i realize I still have covid & can't be going out to the busy soup bar. I don't want to ruin her time though so I keep to myself, leave my mask on, & pour out the soup into the trash so I never unmask. I feel nervous that she'll notice me not having a good time but then she's ready to go too & we step out & I finally do tell her I still have covid. she's kind of upset with me but she tells me she'll take me home &it's no big deal

dream 4 - Friday night
I was at some kind of conference/ lecture series that was indoors & outdoors. for some reason, a lot of the talks were given in restrooms which made it hard to get in because the rooms were so small & people had to sit on the floor which felt gross. I had two kittens that ran around freely & every now and then they'd turn up in the dream. I got out of a lecture & had to go take a shower but the shower I was supposed to use was in another talk. I showered anyway & someone called me out for changing into clothes afterwards but I didn't feel embarrassed to be naked in front of everyone, I mostly felt annoyed at the person who yelled at me & called everyone's attention to me. then I was supposed to go do a puppet show out of this cool puppet-house cabin thing but none of my friends showed up to help so I did it with some strangers. friends showed up later & I felt annoyed again because they were going to go leave to grab food instead of help with puppets. 

dream 3 - Thursday night
dreamt I was helping run a Kathy Acker boot camp for girls. it was a combination of gymnastics, body building, and feminist theory. the girls in my group were having a hard time getting concepts and I felt frustrated & felt like a bad teacher. then there was all this paperwork I didn't know about & I wasn't able to complete it on time so none of my girls passed. 

Dream 2 - Thursday nap
I was on an island somewhere in east asia. I didn’t understand the language of anyone I met, & I walked around outside & it was sunny and grassy & hilly everywhere, with only a few tall modern buildings around that had businesses and residences. I went to a restaurant without a mask on & then felt really stupid because I remembered I had covid & left to go home. Instead of going home though, I went back out to somewhere else where there was supposed to be a movie night. I caught up with an old music professor, Dr. B, and we talked while sitting on the floor. All of a sudden he stood up & backed away & I remembered again that I had covid & apologized & he told me I really shouldn’t be out in public and I agreed. I left again feeling totally embarrassed. I walked through the alley outside with Z and it was sunsetting. We looked really close at some junk people had put in the alley, a cabinet with trinkets, and I wondered if it would be wrong to take one of the little ceramic statues since it was outside. Decided against it. Suddenly there was commotion & I ran up to the top of one of the skyscrapers. I got in a helicopter that took us away. Shortly after that the island was being bombed heavily & it turned into a military nightmare. I felt distraught and then woke up

Dream 1 - Wednesday night
I was at the wedding of my friend andy from New York who I just recently met. He was sitting in the pew in front of me and we were chatting & I was telling him how happy I was for him & asking him about who he was getting wed to. There were a bunch of people from the kc and little rock teams, the quitters and the growlers, who came to watch. I caught up with dan & xooqough, & chatted with saul & liv & we realized we were living in the same apartment building. Before the wedding started, zach told me we had to get back to our apartment for some reason. I was sad to have to leave but we got to the apartment complex & people were getting kicked out. I knew I had to paint a giant mural of an orange on the wall in the hallway in order to claim our apartment so we wouldn’t get evicted. I remember looking at clothes on the floor and people running around the whole apartment building trying to take as much as they could.